i need to travel or i need to at least spend 40 hours per week being productive.

i am not productive because of my bad habits (sleeping late, pron, fast food, not going outside n walking).

this time, i do my bad habits because i am stressed due to a complicated situation. the situation is i am about to get close to someone(s) and it just makes me stressed.

i go to bed at like 6am. i just can’t stop doing that. i always feel bad if i don’t sleep when its dark.

i must make some important calls and visit some lawyers, but i wake up too late. people leave work when i wake up.

i don’t feel like going outside cause everywhere i look seem concrete, ugly, unkept and boring.

traveling makes me quit my bad habits. it just works. but it would be better if i was productive while i’m not traveling. its only for a few weeks anyway. so can you help me by becoming someone i have a connection with?

if this doesn’t work, i’ll start traveling on sunday. i’m fucking ruining my life at the moment. can’t keep doing that cause i’m gonna die and there’s no afterlife. traveling mostly fixes me in a few days. in about 10 days, i’ll feel at my max ish. in about 3 weeks i’ll undo the damage i’ve done in last 6 weeks (fitness). but if it would be better to be productive while not traveling hence this post.

now you can read my post again because i bet $2 you didn’t understand it

  • @[email protected]
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    Normalcy during novelty, inability to direct what you do, abnormal circadian rhythm, and going for easy dopamine hits. This sounds like ADHD to me. Take a look at some symptoms and see what you recognize. If it fits, get diagnosed and medicated.

    • @nowayyOP
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      i’m sure most mediocre diagnosers would diagnose me as adhd but how do i find someone who wouldn’t diagnose me unless i really need to be diagnosed? i hate to rely on drugs

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        19 hours ago

        One of the easiest tests is trying out meds and seeing if it works. Otherwise, call a few and ask how they diagnose and find one you’re comfortable with. I don’t know what else you want in terms of info there. I went through some tasks that tested certain aspects of executive function. I did not start out thinking I had ADHD, I was there for something else and my provider saw enough to suggest getting tested.

        If you do have ADHD and don’t want medication, you’re going to have worse outcomes across the board. You’ll have worse employment, worse relationships, shorter lifespan, etc. https://youtu.be/26V6LCbKXJU for more details on that.

        • @nowayyOP
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          what if it fucks my brain?

          i used a few drugs. i still carry their side effect. i used a very little amount of steroids as painkillers a year ago. my eyes changed and never went back to normal. told the docs at the time and they didn’t take any responsibility and they couldn’t fix anything. shit like that happened more than a few times in different ways

          science is an infant trying to be an adult when it comes to messing with human body

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            13 hours ago

            I’m not here to convince you. Seems like you already have your mind made up. Why bother asking at all then?

  • @Retro_unlimited
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    Maybe at 6am when you’re tired, drink coffee and stay up as long as you can. Fall asleep at 6pm or 9pm. Wake up the next day you may feel tired, but you can go out and start those errands you need to do. Once you start you see it’s not so bad.

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      i tried that several times. doesn’t really work

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    now you can read my post again because i bet $2 you didn’t understand it

    I read it three times and I still didn’t understand it. How can we help you get productive? Are you looking for a job?