Just woke up. Have like 30 messages on my phone I’m going to ignore until I get a shower and coffee.
And all caught up, the life treadmill keeps going.
I want to be able to keep everything simple.
And all caught up, the life treadmill keeps going.
I took Friday off for my birthday and didn’t even check lemmy for several days it felt like. I almost didn’t want to go back to the internet but I work online so here I am lol
Welcome to the party!
Now I’m one of those messages.
Fairplay. I’m referring to the instant messages that I owe a thoughtful response to. Lemmy doesn’t count. I’m just avoiding starting long engaging conversations until I’m ready for them.
I keep trying to get back to a normal sleep routine, setting alarms and trying to stay awake until a reasonable time when that doesn’t work and nothing is working.
It’s too lonely to be up all night and sleep all day 😩 Today I woke up around 6. PM. So that’s how my day is going.
Have you tried no coffee, no tea, no stimulants?
Make your bedroom dark, and without any distractions, no laptop, no phone, no TV, no music. Be consistent, we are training your subconscious that this room is for sleep.
When it’s bed time, sleepy or not, lay in the bed with the lights off. Might be boring, but it’s training your body.
You could pop a melatonin, but only a few times, don’t want to train your body to not produce it yourself.
There is a tom Hanks quote I’m going to butcher.
Q: what do you do when you can’t sleep?
A: wait
Pretty good. Watching Family Guy and having a few brews.
Just got home from work, my supervisor was away and I killed it so I’m feeling quite accomplished, just sitting down for a coffee before do some boring adult stuff
Fingers crossed I can get some gaming in this afternoon
Having my evening tea. Tea time is also lemmy time for me. Overall my day is good.
Stressed. Recently ended a bad relationship, and she won’t acknowledge or accept that it’s over, and my social anxiety is making it really hard to be blunt with her. Also stressing about finding a job - my credentials are enough in demand that I’m not worried about securing one, but it’ll take time and I’m running out of money with bills coming up. My ex-wife is refusing to do what she agreed to have done 6+ months ago (getting her debts out of my name, one of which she’s refusing to even pay for) and I don’t have the mental wherewithal to deal with lawyers and such right now. I’m also staying with my sister because I can’t afford a place of my own yet, and my anxiety has me fretting like I’m majorly inconveniencing her even though rationally I know it’s no big deal to her and she’s happy to help out… And my best friend is going through a shitty time and wants to talk this afternoon, but I feel like I don’t have much emotional capacity left to offer any moral support. And then there’s my daughter. She’s way more resilient than any middle schooler should have to be, but she’s got pretty significant anxiety too and is frustrated with school because none of it is challenging or engaging to her and none of the schools she’s ever attended will offer more than token efforts to attend to gifted students. When I brought up skipping first or second grade, their reactions were so immediately and resolutely negative that you’d think I had requested they start off the school days by sacrificing goats to Satan.
So, uh, yeah, I guess that’s more than just how my day is going but I feel a little better having written it out. So, thanks for asking.
