Down rely on others, appreciate them when they’re there.

I’m quite the opposite.

I hate other relying on me, I always let them down.

I guess you rely on grocerie store employees and suppliers for your food. You also rely on developers at Lemmy for communication and you benefit from that.
Were you let down by people closer ?
You should not answer this, it’s not my business to ask, I am just a stranger on the internet and so I may let you down. Sorry about that.