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  • @treekotoBipolar DisorderTry me
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    94 months ago

    FYI no therapist should ever say this. There are definitely situations in which it’s necessary to lock someone out ☺️



  • You’re definitely not alone in this. Matches really closely with my experience. As long as I can remember I can’t recall childhood memories to the point that the child version of me feels like a different person - dissociation is strong. It’s been bothering me more and more and has had me thinking something traumatic must have happened because what else would explain it?

    I’ve been in therapy for half a year now and learning a lot about myself. I’ve been doing EMDR with my therapist and it’s been enlightening. I haven’t uncovered any specific major traumatic event yet but I’m connecting with suppressed and abandoned parts of myself. For the moment I’m going with the assumption that I have CPTSD (complex PTSD) which is a chronic version of the acute PTSD. I’ve also learned I have a fearful (or disorganized) attachment style and am a carrier of toxic shame so I’d recommend looking into those concepts since they seem to correlate.

    I’m proud of you for posting and questioning - you’re on the path, my friend :)


  • I was just passing through the state and had already left by the time I posted the pic :/ didn’t consider they could have been abandoned at the time… there were humans around camping though so maybe they just strolled off for some snack time












  • People are not naturally fair or peaceful> This is subjective, not objective. Of course if you view yourself and others this way you will think outside force is necessary to keep people in line.



  • I’ve had similar concerns about myself. I’ve started therapy and found out that I’m suffering from toxic shame - something originating in childhood, developing as you age, and comprehensively modifying behavior in adulthood to include masking, dissociation, lack of emotional connection, inhumanly strong moral guidelines/standards, etc. I’d suggest at least looking up the concept of toxic shame. Also, give yourself some credit and some love; whatever the cause, it’s almost certain that your behavioral patterns were set by forces outside of your control and it sounds like you’ve managed it well