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    2 solid weeks of estrogen and spiro now. I am thriving. I feel like the qualities I liked best about myself are amplified and those I liked least are diminished.

    For the past few years I have spent an hour every day in elder scrolls online doing crafting tasks. I have done them so many times now that I just sort of do them on auto pilot and it’s very relaxing and enjoyable.

    Well a few weeks ago I started doing one booty squat for each item i create in the game instead of just sitting. This is 135-140 squats per day total. After a few weeks of this I am excited to begin to see results my panties sit a little different in the back now and when I do laps it feels like i have an extra low gear now and uphill is much easier.

    I have disliked and largely neglected/ignored my body for most of my life and it’s nice to feel internal motivation to take care of myself and be healthy and i really hope that feeling sticks around.

    It never is too late!

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      I have disliked and largely neglected/ignored my body for most of my life and it’s nice to feel internal motivation to take care of myself and be healthy and i really hope that feeling sticks around.

      Absolutely this! Is this how other people feel? It’s amazing!

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        As someone who just started really figuring this shit out over the last weekend, I feel like I’ve done more for my body in the past four or five days than in the past four or five months.

        Shaving that fucking carpet off my neck felt good. Still boy-moding so I left some scruff to keep the cishets from questioning shit.

        Figuring out your gender while bi/pan is fuckin weird because you realize your just trying to do what you think is attractive not what you want to be. Like there’s a difference between the two, but its hard to tell because I’m attracted to femininity and androgyny well.

        The only way I’ve been able to tell the difference so far is the levels of motiviation I feel for working towards bettering myself.

        I’ve never felt motivated to lose weight before. Now I wanna drop some bellyfat so I can look good in one of those high-waisted pleated skirts, and maybe I’ll cut one of my t-shirts off-shoulder too. Oooh! Also fishnets and docs. <3

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          just trying to do what you think is attractive

          Oh yeah, that’s been a total brain-melt for me too. I think I’m starting to see a difference between “be her” and “be with her” attraction, but so far I’ve just been trying things out at random :)

          I forget where it was, but I saw some photos recently of plus-size models (proportionally larger than me, I think) who were wearing skirts really well. Apparently there’s some idea of “dressing for body shape” which I guess I need to figure out…

          Fashion be damned, I’m gonna wear a skater skirt and stripy socks at least once.

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      Oooh, squats while crafting… I should try tha. I should also get a standing desk at some point (current desk is getting kinda… decrepit. Pretty sure it’s survived one too many moves.)