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    • @[email protected]English
      7•4 months ago

      I have disliked and largely neglected/ignored my body for most of my life and it’s nice to feel internal motivation to take care of myself and be healthy and i really hope that feeling sticks around.

      Absolutely this! Is this how other people feel? It’s amazing!

      • @[email protected]English
        3•4 months ago

        As someone who just started really figuring this shit out over the last weekend, I feel like I’ve done more for my body in the past four or five days than in the past four or five months.

        Shaving that fucking carpet off my neck felt good. Still boy-moding so I left some scruff to keep the cishets from questioning shit.

        Figuring out your gender while bi/pan is fuckin weird because you realize your just trying to do what you think is attractive not what you want to be. Like there’s a difference between the two, but its hard to tell because I’m attracted to femininity and androgyny well.

        The only way I’ve been able to tell the difference so far is the levels of motiviation I feel for working towards bettering myself.

        I’ve never felt motivated to lose weight before. Now I wanna drop some bellyfat so I can look good in one of those high-waisted pleated skirts, and maybe I’ll cut one of my t-shirts off-shoulder too. Oooh! Also fishnets and docs. <3

        • @[email protected]English
          2•4 months ago

          just trying to do what you think is attractive

          Oh yeah, that’s been a total brain-melt for me too. I think I’m starting to see a difference between “be her” and “be with her” attraction, but so far I’ve just been trying things out at random :)

          I forget where it was, but I saw some photos recently of plus-size models (proportionally larger than me, I think) who were wearing skirts really well. Apparently there’s some idea of “dressing for body shape” which I guess I need to figure out…

          Fashion be damned, I’m gonna wear a skater skirt and stripy socks at least once.

    • @[email protected]English
      4•4 months ago

      Oooh, squats while crafting… I should try tha. I should also get a standing desk at some point (current desk is getting kinda… decrepit. Pretty sure it’s survived one too many moves.)