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2 solid weeks of estrogen and spiro now. I am thriving. I feel like the qualities I liked best about myself are amplified and those I liked least are diminished.
For the past few years I have spent an hour every day in elder scrolls online doing crafting tasks. I have done them so many times now that I just sort of do them on auto pilot and it’s very relaxing and enjoyable.
Well a few weeks ago I started doing one booty squat for each item i create in the game instead of just sitting. This is 135-140 squats per day total. After a few weeks of this I am excited to begin to see results my panties sit a little different in the back now and when I do laps it feels like i have an extra low gear now and uphill is much easier.
I have disliked and largely neglected/ignored my body for most of my life and it’s nice to feel internal motivation to take care of myself and be healthy and i really hope that feeling sticks around.
It never is too late!
I have disliked and largely neglected/ignored my body for most of my life and it’s nice to feel internal motivation to take care of myself and be healthy and i really hope that feeling sticks around.
Absolutely this! Is this how other people feel? It’s amazing!
As someone who just started really figuring this shit out over the last weekend, I feel like I’ve done more for my body in the past four or five days than in the past four or five months.
Shaving that fucking carpet off my neck felt good. Still boy-moding so I left some scruff to keep the cishets from questioning shit.
Figuring out your gender while bi/pan is fuckin weird because you realize your just trying to do what you think is attractive not what you want to be. Like there’s a difference between the two, but its hard to tell because I’m attracted to femininity and androgyny well.
The only way I’ve been able to tell the difference so far is the levels of motiviation I feel for working towards bettering myself.
I’ve never felt motivated to lose weight before. Now I wanna drop some bellyfat so I can look good in one of those high-waisted pleated skirts, and maybe I’ll cut one of my t-shirts off-shoulder too. Oooh! Also fishnets and docs. <3
just trying to do what you think is attractive
Oh yeah, that’s been a total brain-melt for me too. I think I’m starting to see a difference between “be her” and “be with her” attraction, but so far I’ve just been trying things out at random :)
I forget where it was, but I saw some photos recently of plus-size models (proportionally larger than me, I think) who were wearing skirts really well. Apparently there’s some idea of “dressing for body shape” which I guess I need to figure out…
Fashion be damned, I’m gonna wear a skater skirt and stripy socks at least once.
Oooh, squats while crafting… I should try tha. I should also get a standing desk at some point (current desk is getting kinda… decrepit. Pretty sure it’s survived one too many moves.)
being disabled is Some Shit. i had two (2) things i needed to get done today & it took six (6) hours.
anyway. my partner & i have had to be figuring out a lot on our own regarding my condition, but the working theory now (as of last night) is androgene insensitivity. figuring out how & when to do the injections is gonna take some effort, but i’m optimistic that i’ll eventually be able to function more reliably.
Hope you get it figured out! Good luck ~
So… pretty sure now I am a girl (
stillnot cis tho!). Started off thinking I’d stealth in boymode until I could make the switch, but I kind of want to tell the world and be recognized as at least trying to present fem. I think my sister-in-law knows: nobody has ever complimented my clothes before, and it made me so happy! (even though it was something I got from the men’s department ages ago…)Went into town to visit an LGBT support center and chat with some real-life trans people. At least I think they were; it didn’t seem right to ask. I hope I can look that natural eventually.
Skinny fit jeans! They make my legs look great! Anyone have suggestions for tuck-friendly underwear?
Next step might be to start to do something about the beard. That’s a bit scary though and I don’t know if my hair color will work for laser anyway.
Entering week two of Covid, hooray 🙄
mortido rly bad due to the [hand motions at this instance]
One week to my first hormone therapy anniversary~
Had my doctor’s visit on Monday and got my prescription for E ordered that same day. It should be arriving early next week. Am still nervous about it, but I think this will help me feel even more like me. And I’m excite to look and feel even prettier.
