• @shneancy
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    94 months ago

    misophonia is worse

    nails on a blackboard are not a trigger for me, it’s an awful screeching sound and it makes my skin crawl but it is not a misophonia trigger

    when my misphonia triggers, as the person above said - my entire body goes into fight, flight, or freeze, in that order too. My first instinct is to want to stop the source of the sound with force, but it’s rather socially unacceptable to punch people who are just eating and talking at the same time, so flight kicks in, but then it’s rude to get up and leave mid-christmas dinner, so i just freeze, and want to scream and cry because at that point my mind cannot focus on anything else but that one sound. It’s the loudest thing in my head constantly winding up my body to do something anything to stop it or just not have to hear it anymore.

    i’ve settled on at least telling my family to not make my trigger sounds around me, oftentimes i’ve been told i’m “rude” for doing that too :| it’s seemingly incredibly difficult for them to understand that i’d like to feel nice at family gatherings too, and one thing they’d have to “sacrifice” to make that happen is talking with their mouths full of food

    if a stranger makes any trigger sounds i just leave, i rarely care enough to put myself through the whole “you can’t tell me what to do also you’re being rude and i don’t care” thing so I suffer through it and dip at the soonest opportunity

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      4 months ago

      I literally cannot watch minutephysics videos on YouTube because of the amount of mouth noise when he speaks. Even if I force myself to watch them I just absorb nothing because I just fixate on the mouth noise. It’s baffling to me that so many people not only don’t seem to mind, but don’t even notice it in the first place.

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        4 months ago

        yeahhh, if a youtuber does a lot of lip smacking I simply turn off the video and watch something else, it could be the only video on the topic of my hyperfixation but I just can’t

        i also mute every video and every film if i see food on the screen or if there’s a dinner scene, subtitles whooo! (i also avoid cinemas because i can’t do that there)

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        14 months ago

        Wow I watched minutephysics a bunch and never noticed. I’ll keep an ear out for it next video