Has anyone gotten this feeling before? For a long time my life was forced to go in a direction I didn’t want it to but I had no choice but to passively accept and deal with where I was being lead. So I think it might be a learnt behavior. I know this isn’t a relationship_advice thing but it feels relevant. (Fyi I am not a vulnerable girl being exploited, but perhaps advice applicable to them might help me too)
Something to do with feeling you don’t deserve it.
Just stop it. There is nothing you need to deserve. Enjoy breathing air and watching the sunset.
You have the right to be here and you have the right to be happy even. Don’t self hate just because the matrix keeps telling you you are not good enough. You are good enough.
Now venture out into the world as a new person. :)
But one thing. At least for me, how I feel about myself is strongly connected to how I feel I’m treating others. I couldn’t be a piece of shit and feel good about myself. Some people can but not me. I have the feeling we are supposed to be good. Sue me. :)