I bet your worst fantasies aren't half as bad as mine!
Handholding, getting lost in each other’s eyes, getting brutally assaulted and dominated, french kissing. Truly the most devious stuff :3
The key thing is to separate fantasies and arousal from who you are. You’re not defined by those things. You’re not a bad person for thinking bad things, especially if you hate that you think them. You’re a person who thinks bad things, not a bad person.
Also...
Taking estrogen will probably help if you hate being masculine. You’ll be more in control of arousal and feel better about your body.
I felt like my body was a gangrene limb until recently, only now starting to see myself in the mirror. Arousal also feels so much better it’s insane.
That just sounds super lovely! That’s the kind of romantic spice I love! <3
You are right in that I should separate horni thoughts from actual reasonable thoughts.
I’m really hoping for estrogen to do some stuff which lowers my libido and hopefully some other stuff too (I’m still somewhat young, so one can dream, right?)
Even if you’re not “somewhat young,” it will definitely do some stuff. Why dream when you can do? Life is too short. The biggest downside of waiting is that it’s time you could have spent living.
I’m on my way. I’ll have my next appointment for psychotherapy on this Tuesday (I have to do that for hrt here in Germany). Thank you for supporting me and others like this. You are a real treasure in this community.
I bet your worst fantasies aren't half as bad as mine!
Handholding, getting lost in each other’s eyes, getting brutally assaulted and dominated, french kissing. Truly the most devious stuff :3
The key thing is to separate fantasies and arousal from who you are. You’re not defined by those things. You’re not a bad person for thinking bad things, especially if you hate that you think them. You’re a person who thinks bad things, not a bad person.
Also...
Taking estrogen will probably help if you hate being masculine. You’ll be more in control of arousal and feel better about your body.
I felt like my body was a gangrene limb until recently, only now starting to see myself in the mirror. Arousal also feels so much better it’s insane.
Thank you for responding to my comment!
about the "fantasies"
That just sounds super lovely! That’s the kind of romantic spice I love! <3
You are right in that I should separate horni thoughts from actual reasonable thoughts.
I’m really hoping for estrogen to do some stuff which lowers my libido and hopefully some other stuff too (I’m still somewhat young, so one can dream, right?)
Even if you’re not “somewhat young,” it will definitely do some stuff. Why dream when you can do? Life is too short. The biggest downside of waiting is that it’s time you could have spent living.
I’m on my way. I’ll have my next appointment for psychotherapy on this Tuesday (I have to do that for hrt here in Germany). Thank you for supporting me and others like this. You are a real treasure in this community.