Well, I have a parent that is right on the edge of dislike that I keep them in my life for the sake of family harmony. But I consider them to be a bad person that makes me extremely uncomfortable to be around.
If you had something similar, and they died, how did it make you feel?
I’m purely curious because right now I feel like I would happy that they are out of my life, but sad for my family, but overall happier. And I want to understand if I’m being naive about the hardship of losing a parent, even a disliked one.
I made my peace. She too had a history that made her the person she was and it’s sad that she had to go thru the panic inducing process of dying. In the end she was a human with hopes and feelings just like me. It’s just that we never matched. From time to time I think of her but I’m not missing her. I miss my dad. He was the innocent person that found himself in the crossfire.
Thank you for sharing 🙏
I can relate so much to this. When my mom died I felt pity for her because I felt that if she had been born in a different era with more mental health resources she would have been a different and happier person. I hated her for the effed up things she did but as you said, she was still a human at end of the day.