Well, I have a parent that is right on the edge of dislike that I keep them in my life for the sake of family harmony. But I consider them to be a bad person that makes me extremely uncomfortable to be around.
If you had something similar, and they died, how did it make you feel?
I’m purely curious because right now I feel like I would happy that they are out of my life, but sad for my family, but overall happier. And I want to understand if I’m being naive about the hardship of losing a parent, even a disliked one.
I lost my dad who was truly a despicable person. We occasionally texted happy birthday or happy holidays, but that was about it.
When he died, I felt indifferent. No sadness, no grief, no loss, nothing bad at all. I felt about the same as a coworker telling me he lost the cheap pen I lent him. Oh well, no big deal.
He was an insufferable violent MAGA cultists who died from Covid. He wouldn’t take the virus seriously even up to his final breath, he believed it was a hoax AND a Democrat/Chinese weapon at the same time.
Nobody misses him, not even his mom.
Thank you for responding, while it’s not the same situation (arguably my parent is worse and will probably live a full life) this does help me feel confident with the fact that maybe I’m not naive and it really won’t bother me past my empathy for my family’s pain.