• anon6789
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    32 days ago

    We all admire things other people do, we’ve all got to find our right spot in the ecosystem.

    Squid’s got the time, but I think that’s because of some medical stuff. Blaze does so much community work. Pseudo is always checking out all kinds of activity pub platforms trying to make the most out of all these new tools. I know there’s names I recognize but I didn’t necessarily read what they do because it’s not my thing.

    I make most of my posts ahead of time during times I’m just sitting around and post after I eat breakfast, then I can answer questions during my downtime at work while my machines are running.

    It stinks you got trashed on in your own community. As soon as I opened it, I knew what it was though. People here get very butthurt on AI stuff, but I don’t think what you did is bad. I don’t like people that either try to make money off it or pass out off as real photos, but you didn’t do that, you just tried to add atmosphere to your story.

    I still feel like I stink at this sometimes too. I was worried I was going to dip down to the 3 page of the community ranks before the tournament kicked off. Now I’m almost back to the first. New subs are down, so I feel I’ve peaked. There’s commenters I don’t see come by anymore and I feel they got bored with me. Someone new will post and get way more views than my stuff. There’s always something.

    But I’m here doing my thing. I share what I enjoy and try to get you to enjoy it with me. It’s what I’d do if we were trying to be friends in person. I just want this to be a nice place to be, do I do what I feel is conducive to that.

    • @[email protected]
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      32 days ago

      Oh rabbits, I really appreciate that, mate. Like, things are always so much better when we have a kinder, more reasonable, more gentler setting, is it not?

      I was worried I was going to dip down to the 3 page of the community ranks before the tournament kicked off. Now I’m almost back to the first. New subs are down, so I feel I’ve peaked. There’s commenters I don’t see come by anymore and I feel they got bored with me. Someone new will post and get way more views than my stuff. There’s always something.

      Wait, what???
      Ah, okay, I think I get you right there? But bloody-hell (and muvvle-fluffle) mate, absolutely NO-ONE would be able to keep up with that schedule…! (like, is that a TRUE reason to beat yourself up?)

      It’s like… you set records that should NOT be able to be broken, and then you break them!

      Mssr-- you make me proud across a perfect LATITUDE of reasons, cheesy as that may sound, haha. Yet… well… come on. *When* exactly do you get to recognise yourself, right?

      • anon6789
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        21 day ago

        When exactly do you get to recognise yourself, right?

        “Real me” is a quiet introvert with no sense of self esteem and medicated but still existing major depression. So… never! 😅

        You guys get my professional face. I’m here doing my job. It gives me focus and purpose I need. I got all this research to share with you because I’m rather hermit-ish and would rather be learning than doing most things.

        When you guys tell me I’m doing good, I do believe you. But my wiring doesn’t let me tell me that. I don’t beat myself up about it so negatively anymore, but it keeps me pushing forward constantly.

        I try to make my shortcomings work for me. I’m glad I get to make so many of you happy. This is more attention and a bigger audience than I would have ever believed I’d have or would have wanted. But I’m not anyone extraordinary, I’m just trying to be the best me.