I feel so embarrassed even considering certain things!

I know ‘just trying it out’ shouldn’t be a big deal, but in my mind, it is. Even though I know it shouldn’t be.

Can anyone else relate? It’s like consciously, yeah it’s just a thing. It’s not inherently gendered (clothes, makeup whatever) But! I can’t help but feel so embarrassed to try some shit

My partner has been extremely supportive thus far and is ready to explore with me, but shit is so embarrassing!

My guess is internalized “feminine is less than masculine” and I’m not sure how to get past it? Anyone else? Please? Advice? Am making sense?