My armchair told me to tell you that you have two options:

• You could watch Loony Tunes until all the patterns get expressed as comics when you close your eyes. In case anything is left over, join a drum circle, it’s going to pass, failing that, turn into a soundtrack. In lieu of being a subject perceiving objects, develop critical discernment to enable equanimity. Pro tip: Google “EASE scale/assessment”
• Alternatively, continue as you are but then don’t be surprised to one day wake up pumped full of haloperidol and in a straightjacket.