I got kicked out of my house because my parents found out that I was questioning (I now think I’m bi). They gave me a couple minutes to gather my things and I was gone.

They blocked me and all of my friends have shunned me.

I later found a job thanks to the generous people here on lemmy who gave me some work clothes that I could interview in. My job starts in a bit over a week.

But holy shjt life is hard. Every single day I think about jumping into a car but now that I’ve resorted to begging for assistance online I feel as though I have to follow through. I feel like a piece of shit.

I only have one functioning arm and people look at me like a deformed freak every single fucking day. I don’t know why I was born bisexual or why I was born with a missing limb. I don’t know why I’m broke or why I always have to dig through the fucking trash to eat chewed up and spoiled food but I’m tired of living this way.

A homeless dude stabbed me in the arm and the police didn’t give a fuck. My work clothes are stained from the blood and sweat of other vagrants. I smell putrid. I feel disgusting. If I went to work in the state I am now I would be fired on the spot.

I’m so tired. I don’t even know how I’m going to scrounge the money to find something to eat. I dont want to eat loke a pig i want a solid meal. I need help People have given me money here on lemmy to get a new arm but I can’t spend that money on food when I need it for my prostgrtics

I fele like a piece of shiti tired to pay back the people who gave me money but they wouldn’t accept it. I’m sorry truly