I don’t want to share too much personal stuff, which i personally think in my probably stupid opinion, makes this post entirely pointless. I have a lot of i guess weird or extreme opinions or beliefs. I’ve never really expected people to believe in my beliefs, just to understand how I view the world. It often times feels like it is too much, to keep hoping that others will attempt to understand. Thankfully i have a few people who seem to understand for now. I am very left leaning. I think, i’ve been told im both far right and far left i don’t know anymore. i’ve been told im capitalist, anarchist, communist, socialist and a whole bunch of other ist’s and ism’s i don’t remember. And i’ve struggled up and down with whether or not im intelligent or not. I used to think i was a moron, and with trump, the fact most people don’t read and i was just an average reader in school i guess i come off as. im not sure what word im looking for. I guess i come off as rude sometimes. But i know at least what a tarriff is. But the more i view the world. The i feel better not looking on social media. Not looking as much to replies on posts, not really engaging with anyone other than those i know somewhat well already that can deal with me, and are open enough to tell me when im too much to deal with and they need time away.
When it comes to sharing my ideas for solutions to problems in the world, with lots of people, i seem to get lots of pushback, i can understnad on some of my ideas, but some of them are ideas lots of people have too.
I don’t really want to share those more far left ideas i have, but i wonder if maybe i should shut up and stop sharing anything because i hear sometimes my ideas are just damaging progress or something. The thing is, im not surprised by 2024-2025. It feels more like events were already set there to begin with, and i knew this the whole time but i didn’t want to admit these things. i think a lot of people didn’t want to admit this was possible and thats part of why we’re here. And that is one opinion i’ve lost friends and people over. Is the truth something that we just can’t handle anymore? Am i just totally wrong and stupid? I don’t know anymore. I’m not even sure im looking for an answer. And probably, there is no answer or answers to these thoughts.
i only somewhat understand what a tankie is, i do not agree with stalin. i do not agree with putin, i do not agree with xi jinping the ccp or many of their authoritarian policies, in fact, im not sure why people think most of it is worth defending (aside from i suppose deepseek disrupting things or something maybe? or some of the other chinese technological innovations.)
I do not have tankie friends to my knowledge they are mostly anywhere from a sort of liberal-leftist standing to some more centrist-leaning and more detached from politics than i am. they’re pretty tame compared to me as well i can admit, although they agree with some of my ideas such as voting being placed behind some kind of test that displays one’s understanding of one’s own government. you can keep trying the take the test each year or something i don’t have any specific detailed idea. But i like the baseline idea of having a sort of test that proves someone is capable of voting. Apparently among most centrists and liberals this is an insane communist tankie idea but i dont know. it’s just what i think.
But i suppose i do have the answer to my initial question thanks to your response. I don’t owe you or anyone my apparently differing insane opinions. And im too tired to care anymore. I have to look out for me and those i care about, and not the rest of the world if we can’t share sometimes diverging opinions without such conflict.
On your point about DeepSeek:
I am right there with you about Stalin, Putin, and Xi JinPig, but DeepSeek is absolutely necessary. Neural network large language models started off open source, and Sam Altman hijacked the word “Open” when making his company OpenAI, then proceeded to hide all of the information for his models as a nonprofit organization. More hilariously: OpenAI models are built on top of petabytes of stolen works,and he is now crying that DeepSeek “stole” his “work”.
DeepSeek disrupting the market the way it did was also just a purely good thing economically as the big players all stay locked behind their ivory towers. This yanks them out of it and forces them to actually compete again to some degree. “Oh no, consumers can run these models at home now, what do we do!”