… I realize sure, some things are good, some aren’t, struggles are here, and I’m even not one of those having it the worst.
But I just wanted to write something down for all those of you that are younger : I can’t, sadly, know when or how it ends, or even if it will at all in certain cases, but you know all this self-criticism, self-flagellation, constant lack of self-confidence?
Well, there may be a time when it all ends. Completely, totally, entirely, and just like that, you realize you’re free from it, probably forever.
It doesn’t make everything ok, doesn’t heal everything and won’t change anything to your denied need for justice and anger against subservience or all the evils people, or you, live through.
But this whole thing about self harming, physically or psychologically? THIS may end. It ended for me like 6 or 7 years ago, probably to never come back. Nothing particular happened, you know. Stuff just healed. It took time but it did happen in the end.
And I dearly wish it will for you all too.
Cheers and take care.
Your whole comment was great, but I think this is the most important part. Nothing matters in the grand scheme of things. Human history is a few thousand years, the universe is 13.8 billion years old.
Nobody cares about your trendy clothes, your car, or any of that. Do what you like and enjoy those around you who have had the same realization. Some people never do and I feel sorry for them.
In a recent Astrum video the host was talking about the state of the Earth in the upcoming millions of years. The Earth’s crust is always reshaping. We just don’t see it because our time here is so short. After we as humans are gone every thing we’ve done as a civilisation will be covered over under layers of new crust. Buildings will fall, the toxic mess will be settled, some life will continue after us, and new forms of life may arise. Thinking in that grander scale, nothing we do really matters. All we can do is try to not be shitty assholes within the ocean of shitty assholes around us. We’ll all end up under a compacted layer of new Earth crust and eventually be swallowed up by our own sun. And that thought makes me feel calm.