I’m a somewhat observant catholic, I’ve been dealing with a lot of issues from fellow Catholics, including anti-lgbt statement from them
I’m now going under faith crisis, I have no idea what to do. I don’t wanna leave catholicism but at the same time I want to, The more I look at Catholics, the more I’m getting astray from Christianity especially when I saw someone celebrating a death of a “openly gay” person. and that really disgusts me when I read it, the amount of hatred (some) Catholics have towards the LGTBQ+ community is really staggering to me, also I don’t feel safe with some of my Catholic friends I have. And seems like they kinda of hateful against anyone disagree with their political beliefs, or even religion sometimes
Now I don’t know what to do, either embracing agnosticism . Or just trapped in this religion forever,
I will appreciate for every advice or reply to me. I’m very happy that I find a place to post about issues I’m going through,
I grew up Catholic, I’m baptised and I even did 2 out of 3 communions. I then became a somewhat staunch atheist and now I’m agnostic.
What made me turn my back was my aunt’s death, I was pretty young and it made me wonder how can this kind of suffering exists if there is an all loving God.
Then, growing up, I also realised that many people call themselves Catholic by default, just because they’re born in the right place or the right time, just like a person born in Asia will likely become Muslim or Buddhist.
Then, further down the road, I also realised that people were very selective of what to believe from their religion. That’s pretty much when I realised that the problem was not believing in something, but being part of an organised religion.
I don’t believe in any god, but I’m also not certain that there is no higher power, how can we be certain? We have no proof whatsoever for one side or the other. So I just started looking at philosophy and how to try and become a better person every day, and coincidentally, it fits pretty well with what’s written in many sacred books.
It’s hard and I’m far from perfect obviously, but it helps give me sense to the world around me.
We’re all great hairless apes on a floating rock, hurling through space, towards a certain doom. So, you’re free to do whatever, and personally I chose to try my best at being excellent towards my peer, without fear of never being good enough or eternal damnation. It’s been working okay for me so far.