I’m an immigrant working in the USA, I came here because of the promise of a better tomorrow, a meritocracy, a seat at the table at big tech, and for a while it felt real but then my company was acquired by a larger entity and it all went to shit, now I’m in a race to show I’m the most competent and dedicated person with the most technological knowledge to keep my job and not get layed off.
If I ask my manager or my director a question or challenge their thought process I get called into a 1 on 1 meeting where I’m told I’m a great asset to the team but me asking questions of them in a team setting sets a bad example, and my questions aren’t in bad faith infact in the meeting I was lauded for asking the right questions, but being pulled aside and being asked to kiss the ring felt disgusting.
At one point in my career I cared about what I did and who I worked for I felt pride over my product and my team, and all I feel now is shame to be associated with my company, I feel disgusted with myself that I work not for my customers but for shareholder value.
So I guess my question if any is are there still companies that exist in the USA or outside that still give a fuck about what they’re doing and not just inflate that companies value so it can be sold or keep the stock price going up.
I would love to live and work somewhere where my value isn’t determined by how much money I van make or how much shareholder value I increase, I wouldn’t have to worry about a visa and if I can/will be kicked out if I’m no longer employed.
I could go back home but the work culture there is atrocious it was the reason why I had left, I lasted 5 months and I couldn’t take it and put in my 2 weeks to go to the US for a Masters degree in Computer Sciences.
I’m sorry that this turned into more of a rant than anything else but I’m at a point where I don’t really know what I want to do anymore, any advice or conversation is appreciated.
Generally in almost any setting, uncomfortable questions should only be asked in private.
If it’s about the person specifically, sure. Not when it’s about a group effort like work.
No really, if you have 1 on 1s with your manager, that’s the right setting.
Why? If it’s about a group effort, why would I hide that from the group?
You don’t’t hide it from the group. You avoid embarrassing management in front of others.
Nothing in the OP implies that they asked anything that an adult should find personally “embarrassing”.
How often do you see a company managed by adults? That sounded like the issue in the original post. It’s not about personal embarrassment. It’s criticism of the company.
I dont think what I asked was a sensitive question it was about environment strategy and avoiding teams working in silos, so I don’t think it was something I needed to talk about / ask about in private, I do appreciate your perspective though.