Do you feel like it’s possible to accurately imagine or even describe what it’s like to be high when you aren’t? Every single time I get high, the experience always sort of, surprises(?) me, as being so drastically different from what I might have anticipated. It’s always such a paradigm shift in how I experience my Self and my place in the “universe.” (Currently at a 5.)
I enjoy a few hits a couple times per week. Gives me a very mild buzz and helps me sleep better. I have no desire to get high.
I misunderstood that your normal experience was the bad one and that you had given it up (which is fine with me!). Thanks for helping me understand