So i still have depression and im constantly bored, i feel like a loser who cant do anything right. I want to let my creativeness out, make something i can share with the world or family, but im probably dreaming too big. I cant stand being depressed and bored, it stinks, everyone tells me to work out but i lack the motivation to do so.
i usually just watch youtube all day while complaining to family members that have no idea what to do about me.
Vintage games on GOG are pretty cheap or you could also go down the Abandonware rabbit hole. (I played both Freelancer and Mechcommander recently) Theres a good book called 1001 videogames to play before you die or something like that which could be a great reference if you want to explore retro games.
Youtube could be great, it could be a terrible idea. Youtube commenters are a bunch of fucking savages. Twitch is also an option but my understanding is you need a pretty good pc for streaming or video editing.