Bored and feeling too nauseous to do much atm while recovering from surgery. So i wanted to hear about some of your experiences. I think mine was quite uncommon because i never identified my personal discomfort as dysphoria and rather found out through lying about my identity online (for anonymity purposes) that being seen and addressed as male felt incredibly euphoric and just right. Through that the discomfort in my day to day life becoming more apparent till i eventually had to consider the possibility of being trans and everything else kinda started from there. I was 15-16 during that time. The dysphoria i felt in younger years for me back then was just something i assumed is normal if youre a teenage girl
It was a very slow clicking. I used to be the classic tomboy child who would hang out with the boys and feel really awkward and uncomfortable with girls, like i was performing. With the guys i could just “be myself”. Puberty was hell and it made my friends stop seeing me as a fellow human. I tried complying and “acting as a girl” but the more i forced that the weirder it got and i was just so depressed. When i was 18 i started being exposed to trans stuff online and questioning “whats up with gender, what really makes you a man or a woman?” And then took 2 more years to realize i found no answer to what made Me a woman. Realized then i probably was not a woman. The more comfortable i felt in my nonbinary identity, the more i realized my truest happiest self was a very masculine person. I realized i was a man. And ive been trying to become one (or look like one) ever since. I was deep in denial until i was 25 tho. I guess i still kinda am