As someone with years of sobriety now, here’s some truth: There’s a lag in results to your efforts in this world.
The 6 months before and you getting sober are you at your worst by their very nature and that’s what your employer lived with.
The 6 months navigating new sobriety are very difficult and you change A LOT without realizing it. Oftentimes this changes relationships resulting in them ending.
You sound like you’re well aware that if you pick up that bottle you may not get the chance to put it down again so I’ll leave that alone. There is not a single thing alcohol cannot make worse with time. Even the relief you get from taking it is temporary being replaced with a longing and existential dread while you wait for the next opportunity.
As someone with years of sobriety now, here’s some truth: There’s a lag in results to your efforts in this world. The 6 months before and you getting sober are you at your worst by their very nature and that’s what your employer lived with. The 6 months navigating new sobriety are very difficult and you change A LOT without realizing it. Oftentimes this changes relationships resulting in them ending.
You sound like you’re well aware that if you pick up that bottle you may not get the chance to put it down again so I’ll leave that alone. There is not a single thing alcohol cannot make worse with time. Even the relief you get from taking it is temporary being replaced with a longing and existential dread while you wait for the next opportunity.