I woke up this afternoon feeling so strange. It’s not my room, it’s not my bed, and nothing feels familiar. My family isn’t here, and suddenly there’s a man, my husband, sharing my personal space for the first time. I don’t even know how to explain it, but I feel like an impostor just walking around and doing things in this place.
I just saw on your previous post that you’re in Saudi and this is your first romantic relationship. Would you like to share a bit about the process - How well do you know your new husband? Is there attraction/interest/like or love? How much contact do you have with your family? Do you have friends who are married that you can talk to?
I think my kids felt weird when they went to college- not home, not their bed, strangers for roommates. But that was a temporary and they came home pretty regularly in the beginning.
I met him for the first time last March, and he proposed the following April. We spent time together and talked regularly from then until we got married, but there was always a wall between us, nothing romantic or physical. So I wouldn’t say I know him incredibly well on a personal level, since it’s only now that we’re able to interact without restrictions. I definitely like him and I’m attracted to him, but I don’t think love has really had a chance to develop yet. I have as much contact with my family and friends as I want, and I do have married friends and relatives I can talk to.