Hi, I’m almost 2 years on hrt now and while I never had much bottom dysphoria that started to change once the HRT changes reduced much of my other body dysphoria. For a while I was sure I wanted bottom surgery. I don’t like my current “configuration”, I don’t like tucking and that limits my fashion choices quite a bit. I feel conscious about it a lot of times when going outside. I also can’t even think about being intimate with someone like this. And I just don’t like having this thing on me. Plus I’ve heard a lot about how you get some more hrt changes post surgery since you don’t have any t left. But once I started thinking more about the surgery and researching a bit I wasn’t sure if that was the right thing for me either. It’s probably at least partially because the actual surgery and the healing process are really scary. But the idea of having a vagina also feels somehow weird. I’m not sure why. I know there are some types of surgeries that don’t create “depth” but I don’t quite think that’s the right thing for me either. Tho while my libido was down before I started prog I sometimes thought that I wish I was just flat down there.
I’m absolutely lost about what to do.
Did you have similar thoughts? How did you come to a decision? Any helpful thoughts on this are much appreciated
My rule is simple: any surgery is a drastic and invasive medical procedure, if you aren’t 100% sure you want it, don’t get it. That also goes if you want surgery but aren’t 100% sure which one. Every time they open you up there’s a chance for infection or other complications. So if you get a surgery, get the right one for you and know you’re not going to regret it.
That’s why I’m 99% sure I’ll never have it. But that’s easy for me to say, I’m mostly taking E for the enormous mental health benefits I’m getting from it and never really had much in the way of physical dysphoria.
Definitely won’t get surgery unless I’m sure. Its just that I thought I wanted it for quite some time now and now I’m not sure anymore. But I still have the dysphoria and for the first time since starting my transition I feel like I don’t now what the right next step is for me.
I’d look at pictures of the results, read about procedures, etc. You can’t ever know too much.