(POST EDIT: TRYING TO MAKE THE SITUATION LESS CONFUSING)

  1. Demigirl part (on my bio) is just my dissociation/emptiness feeling making me not have sense of my own gender;

  2. Yeah, I seem to be bissexual;

  3. This is the fourth school I’ve been on and I’m always bullied. Infact, they managed to get me on a written warning situation just today;

  4. Somehow, I ended with a crush on a girl from my church. I thought I was really bi and got all invested on it (thus the porn);

  5. But then I realized I also have crushes on EVERY. PERSON. that was nice to me and not my friend or relative. Which means my brother’s friends, online friends…;

  6. And now I want help to stop.

  • MeowerMisfit817OPEnglish
    1·
    9 days ago

    I don’t tend to be liked, so now I like anyone that shows affection for me. I’m not proud of it, it’s a result of an illness, I’m not really gay then.

    • FireRetardant
      English
      4·
      9 days ago

      I may be a little lost here. Your bio and post says you’re bisexual, you got a crush on someone, watched some girl on girl porn cause this person was on your mind and now you’re feeling down. I think your issue with this is less about being gay or any other sexuality and more about your affection to anyone that likes you. If you like someone and you get aroused by them thats totally fine. Theres nothing to be ashamed of there. You can still question why you like them and whether or not it’s a fit for your life. Rubbing one out is a common tactic people use to determine if they want to pursue someone romantically/sexually. *

      In my opinion, if this frustrated you enough to watch some lesbian porn, you probably like girls at least a little bit. What it means to you only you can discover.

      • MeowerMisfit817OPEnglish
        1·
        9 days ago

        Wait, let me explain it. I know I may be confusing, even I am confusing to myself, I’ll try my best:

        1. Demigirl part is just my dissociation/emptiness feeling making me not have sense of my own gender;

        2. Yeah, I seem to be bissexual;

        3. This is the fourth school I’ve been on and I’m always bullied. Infact, they managed to get me on a written warning situation just today;

        4. Somehow, I ended with a crush on a girl from my church. I thought I was really bi and got all invested on it (thus the porn);

        5. But then I realized I also have crushes on EVERY. PERSON. that was nice to me and not my friend or relative. Which means my brother’s friends, online friends…;

        6. And now I want help to stop.

        I’ll also put this on the post.