I’ve had a low opinion of myself for as long as i can remember. I’ve always hated myself and can never feel proud of my achievements no matter how big or small they are; im just “oh i did that: cool!” And be on my way.
How do I see myself as a human being worthy of love instead of a personification of human garbage?

Here’s a generic list of things to start with
Good advice! When you don’t feel that you can do much, that’s completely fine. Just start with the little things. Be proud of maintaining a routine, do a little exercise, spend time outside of the house even if it’s only walking around the block.
We’ve been there. Nobody is truly human trash (except for those actively trying to harm others).