Sometimes it’s like thoughts vomiting forth as words of self beratement and having to talk yourself down.

Sometimes it’s feeling like everyone is watching you in public even though you logically know they aren’t and don’t give two shits about you.

Sometimes it’s panic at the thought that you’ve really fucked up this time and it’s all coming apart

Sometimes it’s not wanting to be trouble for others and you weren’t ready and everyone will hate you for holding up a line and hang on let me fix this

Sometimes it’s how am I supposed to just talk to people and where is the bar get me a drink or two fast so I can do this.