I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
Not trans but:
Remember you’ve been using your dead-name for how-many years. It’s probably been ingrained into you since birth. It is not so simple to undo the wiring that connects that name to identifying you.
That’s totally fine. In many ways, our brains aren’t exactly great at keeping up to speed with the present.