I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
It’s OK to have multiple names. even getting rid of old ones for new ones is fine, too. Don’t try to force it. Rather, accept it as a past name because it still means quite a lot to you. Be assertive to others if they call you by a name you dislike, and tell them you would rather be called a different name.
I would suggest giving your deadname a creative send-off of sorts, and this will help associate any future moment with a happier memory of your past that you transitioned from to what you are now. It is part of acceptance and progression into a new path of life.