I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
I misgendered myself out loud playing Uno with the kids. I dead name myself in my head a lot. I, myself, am dealing with 37 years of conditioning. You are dealing with [your age here] of people calling you [dead name]. It’s okay if you slip up. Hell, I still misgender my kids by accident and they’ve been out for 5 years. Hell, they misgender each other by accident. It happens. Just keep loving yourself.