I’m not sure whether this is the right place for this question, but… How do you know?

Like, I would 100% be a woman if I could choose. I also always play a female character in games. When I see a girl I feel a strong sexual attraction, but I also feel jealous of her.

But, I’m honestly not sure if I am not cisgendered. I feel like I missed the boat. I also don’t know if I am sure enough. Is this impostor syndrome? How do I know it’s not just sexual attraction? Or me being unhappy with the role men have in this world? Or me being depressed otherwise? It all seems like a big tangled mess.

Thanks a lot for all the comments. I made an appointment with my GP next week and hope that he can refer me to a therapist. All the best to you all <3

  • LegionEris [she/her]
    8•1 year ago

    I came to this from my pursuit of the self. I was neglected and abused as a child and came into adulthood with very little sense of self. When I found and cultivated my sense of self, I persistently found that being myself in private was being a woman. I can’t tell you who you are, but seek yourself. Grow yourself, explore your ego. The answer is in there.

    • @[email protected]English
      3•1 year ago

      Relatable, I also had minimal sense of self, but I think due to being on the spectrum. It’s an ongoing process to develop who I am, to form an actual sense of identity instead of imitating the people I’m around. Gender is only one part of it.

      Even if I never came out, the journey of self exploration has been very rewarding.