I tend to be very logical in questions like this. So do you think you killing yourself would hurt the people you love less than you, for exemple, trying to improve with some mental health medication or therapy? I used to be a horrible person (really) and than I decided that I would either finish it or try. So I started a medication and now I’m a better person. I mended relationships that I had ruined, and have an amazing relationship with my family. Even my professional life improved a lot.