I think I’m struggling a bit on my self acceptance.
For example, I know that HRT is something I want. But I’m not ready for it right now. I have this strong desire to start it and start a more noticeable transition, but after looking more into it I got scared and dysphoric almost about the whole thing?
I have moments where I’m confident and want to move forward but also moments where I’m scared and it feels like too much.
Plus I feel like I’m running out the clock on my transition. I’m almost 30 and only came out to myself and my wife a month ago. I feel like I’ve wasted a lot of my life already in the wrong body and I feel like I need to play catch up almost.
I guess I’m wondering if these are common feelings people have when first starting off? Knowing that you want something for your transition but just not being ready yet. And this weird sense of time slipping away even faster than before? Almost like a mid life crisis… like a beginning transition crisis, lol
Just something I’ve been conflicted over the past week that I thought I would share with y’all. ❤️
That’s a really good idea! I didn’t even think of that. Can I ask who you went as? 😁
Nezuko. Brother already had a Tanjiro costume from the previous year. Cousin was gonna go as Rengoku, but couldn’t get a costume in his size. TBF, my costume wasn’t exactly a good fit either (I decided to wear leggings to compensate for the lack of length). My sister’s friend and my sister (whom I’m not exactly out to nor did I warn them who I was gonna dress as) briaded my wig’s hair while we were there.
Ooo that’s from demon slayer right? I haven’t seen it yet, but heard it’s really good :)
That’s great that they braided your hair. Even though it was a wig :P sounds like they may be open minded ❤️