- cross-posted to:
- weirdway
- cross-posted to:
- weirdway
I was walking around in a park and decided to apply a transformation to my experience when I kept hearing an annoying siren that just wouldn’t shut up.
As soon as I decided that, the siren started to get quieter, with some subtle ups and downs in volume, but trending downward in volume. But this wasn’t happening fast enough for my liking. So I was then focusing this way and that, and I was adjusting my mentality like this and like that to make it go faster. And then it struck me.
It struck me that the reason I was doing that is because on some level I was still assuming that magick is something objective, and then it was my job to find the one right way to do it. I had to match my activity to something I imagined to be objectively the most effective way of performing a transformation.
Then I realized the idiocy of that belief and I found it funny how I still continued to believe it on some level even though I know better. I’m not even sure I’ve learned my lesson. It’s entirely possible the next time some transformation doesn’t work fast enough, I’ll be trying to “tune” it, lol. I hope not. At minimum I shouldn’t tune anything with the idea that I’m matching what I am doing to some external unbending and eternal standard.
I agree totally. I hope I didn’t create any impressions to the contrary.
Furthermore, I find that before I can reform a contradictory intent it helps to understand it first. All intentional states serve some purpose. For me personally I find I have to acknowledge that purpose and then I have to either decide that I no longer need some purpose to be served, or, find a new way to serve the same old purpose, that will not contradict my magickal intentionality going forward.
So for example, a big reason why I was a physicalist to begin with, is the sense of rock-solid stability and predictability I would feel about myself and the world. So let’s say I want more flexibility, but I still want stability. Then I can’t just blindly throw away physicalism. I have to find new sources of stability first. Then I have to gradually lean on those sources and see if they’re reliable. If yes, I can begin relaxing around my prior physicalism.
So it’s a gradual process and one with a lot of self-respect instead of self-bashing. So even though I recognize I was doing things in a substandard way in the past, I should realize that those old ways still had a reason and I wasn’t a complete idiot in the past. :) Just somewhat foolish, or maybe even not so foolish. Maybe my priorities have changed and now I need a new worldview that better suits those priorities.
So for me it’s a process of gradual understanding of oneself that I believe allows one to relax around the old patterns and reform those patterns into some more suitable newer ones.
Contradictory intentionality can be tricky because so much of it is below the level of consciousness, so before I can understand it, I have to be aware of it to begin with. So much of my own effort is directed at becoming maximally aware of all the activity in my own mind. In this it’s been my experience that it helps to combine passive observation with playful experimentation. This is where the magick comes in. Just sitting quietly and observing I will not learn all there is to know about myself. I have to observe myself in action, during striving, and not just when I am passive or relaxing. It’s particularly instructive when I am striving in some unconventional or beyond-conventional manner too. Again, magick.
It’s starting to look that way.
I agree. What I say is not perfect. I mean, I myself find problems with my earlier articles (especially if they’re really old). Plus, I have a tendency to assume everyone is on the same page as me, so I speak in a kind of shorthand that often assumes too much. On the other hand, I have to speak imperfectly, because if I start to explain every last element of the surrounding context I won’t even get to say anything.
So I say something that’s not 100% right, then you say something else, then I reply, and eventually something emerges that’s better compared to if you didn’t say anything.
I am glad for your replies. I think you’re speaking in a very constructive and helpful way.
Originally commented by u/mindseal on 2016-11-11 14:35:36 (d9vdbmb)
Yes techniques aren’t a one size fits all and you have to find what works best for you in any given situation. Awareness is crucial at all times as it helps you to tune your approach and customize it appropriately. Magick is a bespoke artform.
The discussions help chip away the excess and create a more refined model of understanding, even if it’s a temporary model which acts as a stepping stone for an improved one (ironically, the theme of this thread).
It’s always a pleasure and I appreciate the kind words.
Originally commented by u/syncretik on 2016-11-12 11:06:25 (d9wk888)
Well said.
Originally commented by u/mindseal on 2016-11-12 13:10:09 (d9woxku)