Almost all my life I’ve absolutely despised children. Pretty much from the moment I stopped being a child I’ve hated being around children.
It doesn’t even matter what the child is doing. Whether they’re laughing and having fun or screaming and throwing a tantrum. The sound of a child being loud activates an almost primal rage that I can barely contain.
I’ve had to leave social gatherings/restaurants/grocery stores all because if I’d stayed I’d have made a complete ass of myself by screaming at a child just for existing.
It’s even worse with infants which makes me feel horrible because I know they can’t help it. I know the kids don’t know any better and it’s our job as adults to get them through childhood, but my blood boils when they get loud or demand attention.
Has anyone else dealt with something like this? Is there anything I can do to stop from getting so angry?
Considering the original poster’s intense, uncontrollable emotional reactions and the significant impact on daily life, it’s a logical inference, not a judgment, to suspect a mental health concern. This isn’t about making assumptions; it’s about recognizing patterns that often align with mental health issues. Suggesting someone have a child to potentially ‘fix’ these issues isn’t just irresponsible; it overlooks the serious nature of what’s been shared. It’s important to read carefully and respond thoughtfully in such discussions. Clearly an issue for you here.