I grew up with an older brother who would call things gay in a derogatory way back when we were teenagers and i also picked up the habit even though I had never met a gay person and have never had (and still dont have) any hate for them or anyone regardless of sexual preference or gender identity
I still call things gay tho to this day, usually when something kinda annoying happens (e.g. that was kinda gay when the teacher made us do extra homework)
I’m sure there are people who might feel hurt about that so i filter myself when meeting new people and i generally use it less these days but it happens sometimes
Anyone else relate to this?
Well, it’s not weird, it’s rather just homophobic. It is good you have the reflection to ask this to yourself, but I mean, it should be obvious that using a minority as an insult or a derogatory term is extremely discriminating.
And I mean, you shouldn’t just filter yourself when meeting new people. I honestly just think that you should reflect, and if you really agree with what using “gay” as a derogatory term implies: That gay people are something bad, so bad that you just use that in general as derogatory. And if you don’t agree with that homophobic message, which I would think because of your post, you should realise that this is spreading a message you don’t like and stop with it completely out of your authentic self.