Feeling pretty shitty today.
Sup? What happened?
Valentine’s Day blues or something else?
Just one of those days where everything at work feels like it’s going wrong. Falling on Valentine’s isn’t making things any better.
I can’t save money because of my home and car loans. Hell, I wouldn’t be able to eat if it weren’t for my parents helping me out with cooking cheap meals and borrowing money, which I always feel like shit for doing. My job tires me out enough that I can’t work up the energy to fight past my ADHD paralysis to job hunt for one that pays more. I can’t get a raise because of said ADHD paralysis fucking with my productivity. I also can’t work up the energy to clean up and repair enough that I could rent my place out and move back in with my parents. And selling the house is off the table—my parents are the only ones that are close enough to my work for me to be able to make it without a three hour drive, and they’ve got a full house atm.
I was rejected for a refinance that would’ve bought me $400 a month worth of breathing room. And the energy credit is running out soon, so I’m about to start being $200-300 in the hole.
I can’t work up the energy to go out and meet someone who could be my significant other, even if that were something I had any skill or confidence in doing.
Hell, I look at my mates and they’ve got their shit on better lock than I do in some ways. Brian and Marcus have rented their house out and moved back in with their parents, ended up making about $400 a month in profit. Nate doesn’t even have a job, but he has a wife (which is really confusing, considering how he looks), and their combined Centrelink payments let them save up for big purchases they may need to make. Even Carol has a partner and a job at a casino making double what I do. (Names changed for privacy)
BUT!
I have gone through too much, survived too much to let all the effort of doing so go to waste. Even if it ends up being useless in the end, I’m going to take every opportunity I can force myself to take in order to get myself into a better place. No way in hell I’m letting the world push me into a corner without giving it a black eye on the way.
Love the attitude in the last paragraph. I’ve got ADHD too, I find if I pick a time/day to do something (like applying to jobs) and tell someone my plan, I can force myself into not pushing it off. Applying to jobs definitely isn’t a fun experience but I recently changed jobs myself and it honestly feels refreshing. Like starting a new chapter.
Hey, hang in there! Glad to hear you end that post on a positive note. If you ever need some support you can drop me a DM, I’ll give it my best!
I’ve never been this stressed in my entire life. It hits me each morning precisely the second I wake up.
Got laid off from work recently. I don’t feel like finding a new job because I have 10 years of experience and I know I don’t like working for someone else. It feels meaningless. I don’t want to spend my life like that. What’s the alternatine? Well besides the extremely unlikely event of winning the lottery I feel like the only other option is to start my own handyman bussiness that I’ve been “dreaming of” for who knows how many years. I don’t however mean that I have some deep passion for entrepreneurship because I don’t. Not at all. I just feel like it’s the only other option I have and there’s atleast a slight chance that I might like it. Hell, it could even end up being one of the best decisions in my life. Maybe. I don’t know, and I’ll never find out if I don’t try it.
But doubt. Oh so much doubt. This is by-far the biggest and scariest decision I’ve had to make ever. I know I can just end it if it’s not working out and find a job and that’s that but it just feels so permanent. It feels like I’m putting my entire future on the line. It almost feels like risking my life. It’s stupid and I know it. I just can’t help it. No amount of reasoning is enough to fight off my emotions on this. I’m absolutely and completely terrified.
That’s a good sign, honestly.
Your feeling is telling you that you are about to make some “significant” change.
I believe in you. Now you believe in yourself.
EDIT:
I’m actually going through something similar myself. I’ve always wanted to be a teacher, and now I’m like one week away from actually doing that. It’s nerve-wracking.
Pretty sad
What’s up
Poor night of sleep, stressful day of work. And Valentine’s Day makes me sad. I tried to dress prettier to make myself feel special, ended up just feelin lonely anyway.
I don’t sleep well either and tiredness will only make us feel worse in general. Sorry your feeling lonely 🙂 have you got any events or outings planned?
I was going to take myself out for dinner or dessert or something. I got home and got on the couch and never left.
Some days aren’t meant to be, hope you take yourself out tomorrow you deserve it!
What’s been going down?
Air soft, its been 4 days since a 5 hour session and my legs are killing me. Me and my old friends got together. Challenge was great though
I haven’t played in a year or so but I love airsoft. My airsoft buddy wants to go shooting with me but honestly, shooting is lame to me, I prefer airsoft. Running around and doing objective missions is more fun than just shooting a target. Although, I love archery and that’s miles better than shooting.
Shootings good to but doesn’t pump the adrenaline like air soft!
Chilling rn. Just got back from the arcade and had a few drinks so I’m riding this buzz safely at home. I also won a few things from a claw machine so that’s exciting. I’m still a little bummed I’m single for the first time in a decade on Valentine’s Day but life could be worse.
I just spent 15 minutes waiting for a shamrock shake. Now I’m questioning all my life decisions.
But did you save 15% or more?
Just on his car insurance.
Bought myself flowers and beignets, supported a friend who was feeling mopey. I’m depressed but it helps to do things for myself and others
Laissez les bontemps rouler!
Victories: got conditionally accepted for my 2nd choice for uni (still haven’t told any close friends until I hear back from all schools and make a decision)
Challenges: I’m taking linear algebra and diff eq. It’s the first week and I forgot how to take derivatives and integrals. I’ve been staring at the problem for hours and still don’t get how to take the derivative for e^(y/x).
Here comes my boomer moment:
You kids have it so easy with technology these days. Back in my day we really had to stare at equations or wait for office hours with the prof.
Then it came Wolfram Alpha which showed you step by step how to integrate an equation if you wrote it into the prompt.
Nowadays with ChatGPT/Gemini/xyz you can just take a picture of your homework and it will solve it for you (and explain it in any level of detail that you want, if you care about learning). You can have it explain differential equations talking like a pirate, if you want.
Very understandable. I wouldn’t go with A.I. it’s pretty shit for math, but there are calculators out there like wolfram better suited for this. I like struggling first and if I need to use those tools, then I might. My school also has a math tutoring center but as linear is the final sequence, there is less help for that. Some profs probably forgot it.
Congrats on the acceptance!
My challenges are too belligerent and numerous to name here, but they’re overshadowed by the victory of getting a really fantastic car, one I’ve been wanting since I was a teenager.
Congrats! What car? Will you be letting the Stig drive it?
It’s a VW GTI. I’m pretty sure the Stig already drove it, but it’s white with a decent tint so it actually kinda looks like him. (Them?)
Nice to see a prevalent positive comment section among the usual gloom and doom in lemmy.
No big victories or challenges for myself, all going boring but fine overall. Which is kinda a victory, I guess?
Good you?
You know I’m some stuff could be better but all things considered I feel like today is going better than I would thought it’d be.
Pretty great, been drinking beer and having steak. Going to proceed to get baked and laid to cap off the evening.
Remember always finish on the bach, never on De Bussy.
I know it’s small, but I made up with my wife and told her I don’t like being treated the was she acted. I asked her to talk more with me about what she needs rather than bottle it up. We have some healing, but I feel like it’s an upward swing.
I have spent the last 5 days seething about the rise of fascism in my country.
So, not good.
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