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A detective has been trying to interview me, and I have no fucking idea why. So that’s been stressful. Remember: don’t talk to police! Doesn’t matter if you haven’t committed any crimes, it’s always a bad idea to talk. On the bright side, this dumbass detective can’t even find where I live. I’m just living my life, not even trying to hide.
Wore a skirt and thigh highs and did chores around the house and felt really cute.
Hey fuck yeah, good stuff good fun . :3
Def a good feeling 😌 I think that’s now my plan for the day after I’m off work, think I need garters to keep them from sliding off my thighs tho
It made doing chores actually enjoyable haha
Can confirm, felt pretty good!
I read “Brainwyrms” after seeing Abigail mention it in the latest Philosophy Tube video. Turns out the book is absolutely fucked, far more extreme horror than I’m used to. I think I liked it (maybe?), though I was disgusted and uncomfortable the entire time I read it and was noticeably more spiral-y for days afterwards. Thoroughly unrecommendable, anyone you suggest it to would think you were born with a dick in your brain.
That’s good to know. I was planning on reading it after she recommended it, but I am averse to most things horror.
Imagine being both aroace and genderqueer while also living in one of the worst countries in the world for queers. Yeah, this is me.
Can you tell I hate being Moroccan?
I was really happy for no reason and then sad for no reason over the course of the week.
Bleh. It’s fine, I guess. Passed out on my host’s couch and got volunteered for DM duty despite no evidence that I can even keep up with such a game as a player @.@ Turns out I’m currently a lightweight, which I suppose is good to know. Dunno why but oh well.
Procrastinated looking for a new friendgroup so now I have none. Wwweeeellp. Those never last long 🤷
Played some KotOR 2. Am doing a blaster run, which is kinda neat actually. Am hoping to get a copy of the first game and playify that too.
Host continues to impress with tasty yet lazy cooking 😅 Some kinda fancy funky pasta this time. Nom! (And I’m gonna swipe the last of it from the fridge if it’s still there when I extract myself from this blanket @.@ )
Not very eventy I guess. Oh, met more hunams and a small dog and a big dog and a small cat. Tried to steal small cat but it turns out everyone wants small cat so they don’t tend to let them go 😅 Dogs like me, apparently. Am not dog person :| Hmph!Sorry, dogs have chosen, you are dog person now 🤷
Nuuuuuu! Meeewwwwww!!
There’s actually a cat latch on my door to hold the door just open enough for kittycats to pass but not dogs >:3
Pretty insane… for better or worse. I came out to my grandma as bi, I hit a deer, my therapy copay finally kicked in, and my s/o popped a tire and then got into a car wreck.
In femme news, I’ve started doing my nails more and finally started a hair care routine! Also been trying stomach vacuums to get a better figure. I got to go swimming the other day; though I didn’t get to buy a swimsuit, a bralette with trunks was super gratifying for me!
Had a mildly stressful week back at work after a vacation, but I am thankful to have a relatively low-stress job now overall. My worst day in this role is better than my best day at the last job.
Found a new way of applying my eyeliner that suits my face a lot better too, which is fun :)
My week was annoying. The WiFi wasn’t working for eight days and the AC quit working as well. Not a pleasant expierence. Been pretty bored and aimless these days.
same but its my sim card acting up
Pretty shitty, I got rejected for a promotion (to a position I’m more than qualified for) for the third time in a row. I feel like I’m going to be stuck destroying my body in a shitty, entry-level position so I can barely afford bills for the rest of my life.
Distressing, but I have been reaching out far more than I used to, so I have far more support than I used to. I’m weathering far worse than what would make me crumble before. It gets better and all.
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That sounds like a really shit situation, you’re doing a really good thing for someone and I’m sorry it feels shitty
Thankfully, that night was the worst of it, and they were much more stable in the morning. They angrily knocked over some stools and stuff, so could have been a lot worse. They did break a light bulb, but like, deliberately? Apparently something they do as a coping method, and they collect the internals. (They were really apologetic about it, but like, if you need to break a lighbulb to cope with that shit, you go right ahead, you know?) I was concerned for them but not for myself, pretty much. Like I said, they were much more stable in the morning and we made a plan to move them in with their grandmother, a somewhat estranged father, and their brother. Took them over yesterday, they should be much better off with family they moatly know and love, and a much more familiar environment. All in all things qent about as well as they possibly could have. I think they expected me to be upset and angry with them and basically kick them out, they seemed surprised when life went on like normal the next morning. (I’ve pretty much been there, my depressive episodes usually involved collapsing into a puddle on the couch, but I did get more manic ones and I coped by running myself ragged. Good to reduce your energy and somehow feels self-destructive while not really being so). So, all in all, I think everything resolved as well as it could have, and we’re still friends. Dealing with that on top of being nastily sick was really rough but I think I weathered it well.
You sound like a lovely person to have around and it sounds like you’ve really helped someone in need. I hope you were able to take some time for yourself and recuperate etc. Wishing you all the best in the future x
Still dealing with a bunch of health issues and some stuff at work so things still suck for me, and I missed some antidepressant doses is the chaos so it’s hitting me harder than usual. Things will get better, I know they will, they just need some time to stabilize again. I try to be the kind of peraon I want to see in the world, while trying to keep healthy boundaries for myself. I have a much too negative perception of myself, and I kind of have to take it on faith that it’s not accurate, and things like this help give me something tangible I can point myself to, you know? Thanks for taking the time to chat about this, I appreciate it
My dm’s always open to chat :). You sound like the kind of person I’d like to see more of in the world. And it sucks that being a person who goes out of their way to help others is so often comorbid with having a (usually undeserved imo) negative perception of themselves. Do you the story about the Persian king who offered great rewards to anyone who could make him feel hopeful when he is sorrowful and ground him when he is elated? ( I’m paraphrasing and butchering the story somewhat)
