I’m 7 days into a massive gallstone attack. I’ve been diagnosed and waitlisted for surgery twice now (Canada) but healthcare is falling apart here. I can’t wait any longer. Yesterday I told the doctors if they won’t do anything I will publicly commit suicide in a very loud and publicized way. I can’t take this shit anymore. Its a 30 minute surgery and ive been having major problems since May. Our country is falling apart but the grocery stores and telcos are making more than ever so we’re all good right…right?

got an interview this afternoon past the recruiter phase. wish me luck.

It sucks. I’m reviewing for a board exam, but I can’t for the life of me focus for an entire day. I can only study in the mornings, and anytime after that I get so sleepy and easily distracted. It’s been like this for weeks now, so much that I’m way behind on the study schedule.

I tried journalling, exercising, and listening to ambient noise to improve focus and energy to no avail. Ugh, the exam date is still far ahead but I feel like I’ll surely fail.

I think my friend I always talk to on Lemmy has passed away, he had cancer and was on a palliative ward when we last talked due to fungal infection, and was awaiting debulking surgery for the tumour. I’ll miss you friend. Your messages made me feel happy.

Pretty mid tbh, failed my driving test which is pretty shit but apparently very common around here. Made a pretty cool python script to monitor test cancellations so I can swoop in and do a new attempt, otherwise I’d have to wait like three months, so silver lining I guess.

Been in a kind of rut to be honest. I love Autumn, but the times know how to make you think of certain ongoing social issues with more emphasis.

Was going well but a hiccup today, got rear ended a few hours ago. My car will need some repair but it’s drivable. I’m at the walkin now getting a shoulder X-ray and painkillers. Likely just a muscle strain. What a way to almost start the weekend.

Had a fairly important work deadline that was supposed to be end of this month. Unfortunately, I didn’t read institutional policies carefully enough, and institutional fuckery mandates that they receive all the documents one week prior. So my actual deadline is like next Monday

So yeah, I’ll be working this entire weekend… at least the good news is I can probably get two free days off by the end of this month (which I wanted to do anyway)

Good: Off work tomorrow because my wife is doing her US naturalization / oath of citizenship ceremony and then we’re spending the weekend on a paddling/camping trip.

Bad: Grandma was diagnosed with bowel cancer and has less than 6 months to live.