I find it embarrassing to carry fast food (or any restaurant food that isn’t considered healthy) from my car to my apartment.
I work from home and my neighbors know that. I don’t get out much and don’t really eat out often either but I don’t want to be the guy that’s seen as carrying tons of premade food back home.
I know it’s rather silly.
For what it’s worth, I’m with you.
I also work from home, and while I generally cook all my own meals and do meal prep at werkends, sometimes I have a bad/stressful week where I cave and get fast food like three lunches in a row.
I keep a grocery bag in the car and put the fast food in there to hide my shame.
Ha, me too! That’s exactly what I do!
I am embarrassed by nearly everything for sort of unknown reasons.
Sometimes people ask me what I had for lunch in order to make casual conversation and I have a hard time responding.
Even today, my coworker told me some theory she has on a show we were watching and I wasn’t able to really respond much, despite being able to endlessly talk about shows via text with strangers online.
Could it be a masking thing? I am reflexively secretive about the oddest most innocuous things. I think this is an ADHD masking thing, a way of preempting the possibility that something I do will be seen as weird. I’m not aware of experiencing it as embarrasment, but I could imagine it manifesting that way.
I think it’s both an anxiety thing and a privacy thing. I also am afraid of something sounding “weird” or not socially acceptable or for someone to judge me for something. And other things just seem to be personal, like things that I like and enjoy. An example is that any one person won’t feel the same type of deep feelings I do for a song I like, and vice versa that I won’t for theirs.
Why do you think this is an ADHD thing?
From what I’ve read, masking is common in both ADHD and the autism spectrum. I don’t know if what you describe falls under that or not, but it bears some resemblance to what I experience and have come to believe is in my case a form of masking.
