After what I told in my previous post, I decided to talk to Alex my friend and we had a long talk.

At first I was against having anal sex but we needed to record and make content, so he suggested that I could rub my member on his thighs and it wouldn’t be anal sex but it would be the same movements as if we were fucking standing up.

While I was doing it I had an intrusive thought about putting my cock in him and fucking him, but it was just that, a thought, it was the first time I thought about something gay sexual and it was at that moment with him.

I know that here they think I’m gay or bi, but the truth is that I don’t have fragile masculinity, and it’s something I couldn’t do if I didn’t have confidence with my friend and the money is worth it, I don’t like men neither romantically nor sexually.

It’s ugly to say it, but I’ll say it, I’m taking advantage of the comfort and trust of my bi best friend, just to have a good time without having to do days of work to receive something from a girl.

The next day, I was horny and I told him so, I told him I wanted to fuck him and he got everything ready right away, put the camera on to record, dilated himself with a dildo and I did my thing.

I don’t regret it, it was a good experience, but I’m not sure if it will happen again and I don’t know how to feel about myself.