I hate people, but I also love people

You aren’t your job.

I’m a worthless failure of a human for being stuck in a dead end factory job.

That cold ice can still burn the skin!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_dissonance

The people around me are generally decent and good.

The people around me are knowingly cruel and needlessly violent to vulnerable individuals several times a day, resulting in those individuals suffering grievous atrocity.

Cognitive Dissonance. Mine is order/disorder.

Double think