• @Delphia
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    1111 hours ago

    Yeah but then you hit the point that I’m at which is "I do this SO MUCH and my diet is SO GOOD why do I still look SO AVERAGE!?!

    and you see concerning behaviors from yourself that are the beginnings of eating disorder territory and start fucking with supplements that simultaneously “dont work” but yet are banned by sporting bodies… and the stupid exercise becomes part of your mental health problem.

    • @Squirrelsdrivemenuts
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      149 hours ago

      If you eat well and work out, you are probably looking really nice! Don’t compare yourself to “perfect” people on instagram, compare yourself with who you where before (or just for fun with the average person in wallmart). It also helps to find another goal than simple looking good, such as lifting a certain weight, or participate in sport events. Makes it all way more fun.

    • MrScottyTay
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      79 hours ago

      Sounds like you have body dysmorphia. You should really look for some help in dealing with that.

      I don’t know how to fix that sort of stuff but I feel like if you at least understand that your own mind is sandbagging you constantly, it might help a little. Just remember it is not telling you the truth about how you look whenever you think like that.

      • @Delphia
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        38 hours ago

        Nah, I’m on top of it. I had a real struggle putting the brakes on my last cut. I dropped a kilo(2lbs) a week for 12 weeks and when it came to an end I was like “Number must keep dropping! Number cant go back up!” and it took a few weeks for me to calm down and get back to normal eating. Doesnt help that I have addict wiring in my brain.

        I had a lot of empathy for teenage girls for a few weeks, I was SO CLOSE to having visible abs but I was hitting burnout hard and needed to go back to maintenance for a bit.