Just need to vent. I realized I was trans and I have been repressing it for awhile. I told myself I wanted to start hrt by the end of the year. But I have been struggling with health issues too. To the point that I may have to go on disability and everything feels hopeless. My living situation puts me into a position where I cannot be open about who I am. Plus I met someone who I thought was a really nice person. I just wanted to be friends but they love bombed me until I gave in. Which broke my self esteem all over again. Everything just feels like too much right now and I have spent the last two days in bed in the fetal position not moving at all.