Still have issues years later after a spammer* joined a chat I was in and spammed CP. I barely saw a glimpse of a baby and the rest that I won’t describe, but it was around the time my sister had her first son, my nephew, and I couldn’t do anything for months because every time I would start feeling aroused that image would flashback in my mind and I would feel utterly disgusted at everything and myself. I’m still getting intrusive thoughts every now and then when I’m trying to have some me time that make me lose the desire to continue, but I’m slowly getting better
it’s the primary reason i refuse to be a mod again. it can be traumatizing just dealing with the spammers.
Still have issues years later after a spammer* joined a chat I was in and spammed CP. I barely saw a glimpse of a baby and the rest that I won’t describe, but it was around the time my sister had her first son, my nephew, and I couldn’t do anything for months because every time I would start feeling aroused that image would flashback in my mind and I would feel utterly disgusted at everything and myself. I’m still getting intrusive thoughts every now and then when I’m trying to have some me time that make me lose the desire to continue, but I’m slowly getting better
Also same reason I refuse to have or moderate any NSFW first community.
I know very well what I would have to see, and I’m just not made of tough stuff.