Dude, just found this comminity the other day. Being honest, I always suspected and actually acknowledged some of the traits i had and have as autistic-ish; hell, even when growing up my mom and I used to joke around about me being autistic. But time passed and learned how to “act in life” and things were left only as a joke.

Anyway, I saw here someone sharing a link to RAADS test. I said to myself, naaah this is just a bunch of people seeking for validation of the ideas they already have. Fast forward a couple days, that idea never left me and took the test (I know what you are thinking) .

I just don’t know what to do with the results, honestly, I was expecting the score to be something in the realm of 100. But it is a fucking 176.

I just don’t know, man…

  • @[email protected]
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    31 year ago

    186 here. Already diagnosed with ADHD, so lots of overlap, but I definitely connect with a lot of things I see around about autism. I should set another appointment with my doctor for ADHD and see if he can properly test me or something. I’m like 4 months without my meds anyway, so I know I need to setup an appointment anyway.

    I just don’t want more “you are broken” things floating around my head. It’s bad enough already.

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      I just don’t exactly what to do with this info, I mean, I’m in my thirties now, I’m far of having a secured life, but been having a good time in the recent years, despite all of the set backs and so on, I believe I reach a point where I can stand strong and face whatever situation i am presented with.

      But knowing the results makes me wonder if maybe I should “adjust” my view of life or maybe grab some reading about the subject, there’s a chance that I would come across something useful to improve life quality.

      Or maybe I just need to keep going as I have, I’m not sure.

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        31 year ago

        I absolutely feel you. I’m doing really well in terms of what society would consider good, but it’s absolutely falling upwards. I’m really good at my job, but the setbacks are constant outside that world and I 100% relate to everything you said. Just feels like everything is always falling apart and my best efforts will never be enough.

        I felt the same way when I was diagnosed with ADHD, and I still have no idea what to do with that info other than feel “not enough” for anybody.

        I don’t have any answers, but what you’re feeling is the same as me, so don’t hesitate to DM me (if that’s a thing on here) and vent. I’m always in need of a good vent too.

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          Completely agreed. Over time that feeling of not being enough, or not be a good companion for my loved ones have been slowly going away. Now, I´m gonna seriously be looking for a doctor, haven´t visited a psychologist since I was 10 or so. It is time.

          For sure, I´m going to take your word in that, I really appreciate it. Please feel free to do the same, I got you!

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          Yeees, that was the main purpose of my post here, I was thinking that doing some research and maybe start to going to a doctor could actually improve my social awkwardness. I have been a loner for over 10 years, enjoyed it and grew into it, but at this point I keep thinking that I need to intentionally putting myself out there, at least just for health.

          I totally get what you say about your brain kinda switching its ways when you’ve been doing things by yourself for so long. Thanks for the advice, I will go out more often.

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      You’re not broken, you’re just a way. Redheads and lefties aren’t broken.

      I see lots of doctors all the time, but I haven’t seen one for myself in over two decades. I wonder more often if I have ADHD, or if it just seems like that due to other underlying issues.

      Pretty sure I’m on the Autism spectrum, though, since my work desk monitors are lined with post-its about how to communicate with other humans.