Medical debt for my disabled friend/roommate’s cat who had a bad accident which severed a tendon. I’d love to pay it off for him if I could. Emergency visit to the vet for a severed tendon, all the follow-ups, and drugs over his month long recovery. I recently used up my savings and added debt myself to renovate my entire previously unfinished basement for said roommate/friend and have nothing left to give. Took him and his two cats in because he needed to escape his abusive mom. It’s been a big fucking stain on his fresh start from my pov and I’m bummed out about it /rant.

Sex. Not gonna happen with the kids at home and houseguests.

With the way the weather goes anymore due to climate change in my area, a white Christmas. I think either last year or the year before we had one, but that also came with the first subzero temperatures I’ve ever dealt with.

This year there’s been basically no snow at all outside of maybe a day or less and not even that cold. I’ve been able to use a leather jacket I’ve been wearing most of fall and haven’t needed to pull out my actual winter coat besides once this December. I really do like my winter coat, so I’m bummed about that, but also bummed because I associate Chrismas with snow because there was always snow every winter in my hometown compared to now.

More tools. A knock off power probe, a set of wrenches, mid length metric sockets and a few more pairs of pliers from amazon.

I want to be able to buy out the entirety of my geeky/nerd knick knack store. But I most likely won’t because I’d feel cluttered with so many figurines and other stuff that I’d end up donating it.

To not be alone.

Time. I just want time. And so far haven’t gotten any.

Is it bad that I’m grateful to COViD? I invited my ex and her father for Christmas dinner so they could also spend time with our kids, but we never had compatible meal routines and they’re insisting on dinner at 3pm. However she came down with just enough COViD that they probably won’t come. I can have dinner at dinner time! I get time to sleep in, time to enjoy Christmas with my kids, and even time to put dinner together.

If the rest of my week could go like that, I’d be so grateful

Some things for my daughter’s room (a nightstand, a bedding set, and a table lamp) to help her transition to a “big girl bed” from her crib. But they’re not “fun” gifts or toys so I’m not expecting to get them even though they’d be the most helpful. She has enough toys.

I want Saturn, somebody please buy me Saturn and all it’s moons.

One of the rentals I’m trying to get into to contact me back so I can leave my house and finally get this divorce on the road.

Peace and quiet. I usually end up cleaning more than anyone and regulating my kids emotions. I get a break when they go to school. Now they’re home for 2 weeks. I miss when they were younger. It was far simpler.

I’d like to skip Christmas, I get nothing out of it but headaches. I don’t enjoy the family get togethers (individually or in small groups my family is mostly fine, but all of them at once is too much) I don’t want anything that can reasonably be asked for or given as a present, and I don’t have any space for the useless junk I’ll inevitably receive.

What I need/want is money. I’m not struggling, but I have projects and things I’m saving up for and whatever they’d spend on gifts if they feel like they need to give me something I’d much rather them just give me the cash or Venmo me. They’re not going to gift me a new heater, deck, washer/dryer, paint for my living room, etc. the best I can hope for is some gift cards to Lowes, home Depot, etc. and inevitably the cards will all be to different places so I can’t even use them all on what they’re intended to go towards, and there’s a good chance that once I’ve saved up enough I’ll get the best price at a store I don’t even have any gift cards for, so they’re going to sit around collecting dust because I’ll never remember to grab them when I need to go buy a box of screws or something.

Just give me cash.

Anything. I haven’t gotten a Christmas gift in years. My family isn’t big on holidays, but I like the idea that someone was thinking of me. I think a card would be nice.

A reason not to do it

The same touchscreen gloves I got two years ago that are no longer being made. There’s three pairs on eBay and if no one buys them for me I’m buying them all for myself.