That’s a very low bar for ruining lives.
Consider that you have discovered a disturbing trend in yourself that you would like to address before it hurts more people… and also consider forgiving yourself while you work to be better.
As another said, therapy is a good idea, especially as you know one of the things you would like to address in that therapy.
It’s a long journey to be a better person, but not because it’s difficult to make progress. It’s long because once you’ve started, you develop the skills to continue being introspective and working toward your true self.
Duster came out on HBO and I loved the pilot. Stars are Josh Holloway, Keith David, Sydney Elisabeth, and the 1970s.
My wife and I are now determined to bring ‘Far Out’ back.